21 November 2007
Wednesday, I am grateful...
...for finally being able to calm down and fall peacefully asleep. Obviously, I could not be bothered to capture an artistic shot of me tossing and turning in bed, with a frustrated grimace on my face. The vast prairie horizon has become something of peace for me since moving away. It represents my calmness.
I'm up early for work again. I went to be late. I've never been the type that could go to bed when I'm not that tired. I can't just close my eyes and eventually become sleepy. I either have to be sleepy or occupy myself with something that makes me sleepy eventually. When I don't follow these simple rules, I don't sleep or barely sleep at all.
I'm running on less than three hours of sleep. I tossed and turned in bed; feeling hot, feeling cold, thinking-thinking-thinking which eventually turned to anxiety and worrying. I kept thinking of horrible, panicky things because I was so tired in my body but so awake in my mind - worries about flying home for Christmas, dying, etc. Somehow...somehow, I ended up convincing myself to let my body relax and find a sense of calm. Finally, I fell asleep.
Tags: Anxiety, Grateful, Gratitude, Panic, Photoblog, Sleep Disorders